By Jean Balchin 18/01/2018

Out in the North Atlantic exist a collection of wild islands, rising in jagged ranks off the northwest coast of Scotland. Leaving my cosy cottage on Lewis, I set off across miles of ocean to the splintery archipelago of St Kilda, abandoned over a century ago. Here, the weather is a fickle, flighty mistress, cloaking the islands in mist and rain one minute, and melting into calm seas and beatific sunshine the next. For thousands of years, humans have fought to survive out here, seemingly on sheer determination, sea-water and salted puffin flesh. Little stone dwellings are all that remain now of these hardy people; the wind, rain, and waves have worn away everything else. These crumbling remains, like the ruins of Babel, conjure up the memory of the farmers, shepherds and fisherfolk who determinedly created a home for themselves on the edge of the world.

Map of the Outer Hebrides. Wikimedia Commons.

Composed of granite and gabbro, these islands are the remnants of a long-extinct volcano ring. Baxter and Crumley (1988) suggest that St Kilda

“is a mad, imperfect God’s hoard of all unnecessary lavish landscape luxuries he ever devised in his madness. These he has scattered at random in Atlantic isolation 100 miles from the corrupting influences of the mainland … He has kept for himself only the best pieces and woven around them a plot as evidence of his madness.”

You’d be forgiven for thinking St Kilda was the saint of the eremitic life or puffins. It’s more likely she is the saint of forgetfulness, or mistaken identity. The name St Kilda is actually the result of two mapmaker errors from eons ago – a typographical error and a transposition error. And here I was, holidaying in this marvellously lonely place, as far as I could get from my home in New Zealand.

Heading out

I awoke that morning to the shrill pealing of my alarm clock at twenty to six and hurriedly swallowed a cup of coffee, wincing as it scalded my throat. My aunt busied herself with making packed lunches, and soon we were on our way. We emerged from our cottage into a world drained of colour. The grey sky was low and heavy, and as we drove, rain pelted the windows like thrown pebbles. Yet as our car would its way towards the wharf, the sun began to sparkle weakly and warm the swelling sea of large brown hills. I peered out the misted windows at the little cottages and peat-stacks, clustered together like huddled penguins.

The author with her aunt and uncle, feeling very seasick.

Our car pulled up to the wharf and we stepped out into the frosty morning. I could taste the sharp, biting salt-air on my tongue; it roused my senses better than any coffee could. We were ushered onto a little red boat by a cheery young deck-hand called David. After being briefed on security, we were on our way. I headed out onto the deck, where I was immediately soaked by a large wave. David couldn’t help laughing, and handed me a pair of waterproof overalls. I shuffled, swore and finally squeezed myself into these horrific overalls that made me look like a SWAT team member gone AWOL. I used to think that I had fairly good sea-legs for a land-lubber, but good Lord, was I wrong. Our wee boat was buffeted this way and that by the angry waves, and soon I began to feel my breakfast re-emerging. My aunt and uncle sat in pained silence, their faces a sickly grey colour. We clung to the railings, willing the trip to be over. To my utmost relief, the murky outline of St Kilda finally appeared on the horizon.

Land Ahoy!

Prying my frozen fingers from the railing, I tottered over to the ladder, and carefully climbed down into the dinghy. We rowed slowly to the shore, bobbing over the foamy waves. “See here,” chucked the captain as he watched our contorted faces, “here’s a tale to really stir your bellies!” Long ago, two rival families – the MacDonalds and the MacLeods – both laid claim to Hirta, the largest island of St Kilda. After a great deal of squabbling, it was agreed that a boat race would take place and the islands would be awarded to the crew that first laid a hand on Hirta. As the boats drew nearer to shore, the MacDonalds overtook the MacLeods, jeering and laughing at their rivals. Not to be outdone however, a MacLeod cut off one of his hands, and with his remaining hand, he threw it onto the land. Thankfully we didn’t have to part with any limbs upon landing – only our dignity as we floundered and scrambled our way onto the sand.

Village Bay, St Kilda. Wikimedia Commons.

Village Bay seemed to me a gloriously green basin, fringed with white sand and dotted with abandoned houses. These old homes, with their gaping doorways and fractured walls now housed weeds, wild flowers and sheep. They were shells of their former selves; like headstones in an old cemetery, they stood as memorials to those who had lived, breathed and died under their roofs. Small slates sat in empty fireplaces or on doorsteps, marked with the names of those who were the last to leave. I cannot tell you how odd it felt to be standing in a crumbling cottage that had once been the home of an island family. I felt strangely sad, walking down the grassy main street. The old stones, warmed by the sun, seemed lonely and mournful. Perhaps all abandoned communities have this atmosphere. Perhaps the city of Atlantis, drowned by the rising sea, longs for its people. Perhaps Pompeii is still suffocating under the weight of death, although the blanket of ashes has long vanished.

Lady Grange

One house beckoned to me. Its slate informed me that this sad little swelling was the former home of Lady Grange, the wife of a Jacobite sympathiser. Lady Grange had been exiled to this island when her husband became fearful that she might spill his secrets. The poor woman felt perpetually out of sorts here on St Kilda, which she described as a “wile neasty, stinking poor isle.” Boswell and Johnson discussed the matter of Lady Grange during their 1773 tour of the Hebrides. Johnson believed that if

“M’Leod would let it be known that he had such a place for naughty ladies, he might make it a very profitable island.”

I had a sudden vision of a wild band of shady-ladies-cum-harlots scampering all over the island amongst the bewildered sheep. That I would pay to see.

A cleit above Village Bay, Wikimedia Commons.

I rose and walked up the hill, weaving my way through the large sheepfolds and the curious little cleaiteans that decorated the hillside. These dome-shaped structures are constructed of flat boulders with a cap of turf on the top, and were used for storing peat, grains, nets, preserved meat and hay. I crawled into one, and peered through a chink in the wall at all the other tourists, striding around the island with their cameras and lunchboxes. Bile rose in my stomach when I realised this particular cleaitean was also inhabited by the decaying, bloated corpse of a long-dead sheep. I scrambled out of there immediately and sat down next to a nice friendly-looking alive sheep. With numbed fingers, I peeled an orange. The sun was shining in a kindly way and the feeling of spaciousness was exhilarating. I handed a segment to my ovine friend and contentedly watched him guzzle it down.

Collective working

“Where is the land which has neither arms, money, care, physic, politics, nor taxes? That land is St Kilda.”

So wrote Lachlan McLean, a missionary from the island of Tyree in 1838. Virtually ignored by the mainlanders (who were too busy fighting petty battles and squabbling over crowns), the St Kildans were left to develop their own form of society. A form of communism emerged wherein decisions affecting the whole community were made in a collective manner. Work was assigned on the basis of individual skill, and there was no such concept as ‘private property’ – excepting the beds and cottages one slept in. Every morning, a daily ‘parliament’ met in the street after prayers. Here, all the adult males decided on the day’s activities. There was no leader to this meeting, and as you might expect, vigorous arguments often ensued. According to one islander,

“discussion frequently spread discord, but never in recorded history were feuds so bitter as to bring about a permanent division in the community”.

If only the same could be said about the Beehive.

The Street in 1886, Wikimedia Commons.

The Church

After finishing my lunch, I headed down to the little whitewashed church, which lay gleaming in the weak sunshine. Warm light filtered in through the windows, lighting upon little dust motes that danced over empty pews. For centuries, the people of St Kilda had practiced the Christian faith. However in the 1840s the people of St Kilda chose to affiliate themselves with the Free Church of Scotland. This disastrous decision resulted in an obligation to spend many hours in prayer and worship. Any behaviour not approved of by the Free Church – such as card games – was outlawed.

The islanders’ natural way of life was greatly disrupted – prayer meetings replaced fishing outings, and for the first time, a form of hierarchy was introduced into St Kildan society. Indeed, one visitor in 1875 noted that the Sabbath was

“a day of intolerable gloom. At the clink of the bell the whole flock hurry to Church with sorrowful looks and eyes bent upon the ground. It is considered sinful to look to the right or the left.”

The threat of dire punishment in the afterworld hung over children on the Sabbath day. I felt a certain affinity with these long-dead island children. My own father was a strict Presbyterian minister, and I still recall with a slight shudder the dreary Sunday mornings of my childhood. Music and dancing had been enjoyed at Hirta for centuries; but all was quiet and still now. Even in church, no musical instruments were permitted.

Open boat voyages

Before steam ships, motorised ferries and airplanes, the only means of making the journey from Harris to St Kilda was by open boat. This often required several days and nights of rowing across the open ocean. While I relished the isolation, I couldn’t imagine taking such a voyage in autumn or winter. After the Battle of Culloden in 1746, it was rumoured that Bonnie Prince Charlie and a few of his Jacobite pals had escaped to St Kilda. An expedition was duly launched, and a number of British soldiers were ferried ashore to Village Bay, where they were greeted by a deserted village and the odd stray sheep. The St Kildans, fearing pirates, had hidden themselves away in caves on the western side of the island. When the wary natives were eventually persuaded to come down, the soldiers discovered that the islanders knew nothing about the Bonnie Prince – nor had they heard of King George II!

The St Kilda Mailboat

Even into the late 19th century, the islanders communicated with the world by lighting a bonfire on the summit of Conachair and hoping a passing ship might see it, or by using the ‘St Kilda mailboat’. This was the invention of John Sands, a visitor to the island in the 1880s. During Sands’ stay, a ship called the Peti Dubrovacki ran aground in Village Bay. The captain and eight of the crew were saved, virtually seconds before the boat was dashed to pieces on the rocks. Romance bloomed between one of the Austrian sailors and a St Kildan lass, although neither understood the language of the other. After around five weeks, supplies were running perilously low.

Sands retrieved a lifebuoy from the hapless Peti Dubrovacki and attached a message to it, before flinging it back into the ocean. Nine days later, it washed up in Birsay, Orkney, and a rescue was arranged, much to the chagrin of the two lovers, who tearfully bade farewell to each other with many sighs and kisses. Hereafter, the St Kildans would fashion a piece of wood into the shape of a boat, attach it to a sheepskin bladder, and place in it a small bottle or tin containing a message. These little boats were launched when the wind came from the north-west, and for the most part, successfully found their way to the west coast of Scotland – or, less conveniently, Norway.

Launching the “St Kilda mailboat”. Wikimedia Commons.

Gone are the days of these little bladder-boats, bobbing happily from St Kilda to the mainland. As the nineteenth century drew to a close, there was a gradual increase in the type and frequency of contact with the world at large. Eventually the continual gawking of tourists and passing cruise ships, coupled with tales of the easy mainland lifestyle began to wear down the islanders. A plan for the evacuation was devised remarkably quickly. Sheep belonging to the islanders was sold, and the proceeds used to offset the costs of transporting the people and their belongings.

On August the 29th, 1930, as the first blush of dawn bloomed on the horizon, the islanders readied themselves for departure. The calm and sparkling sea lay beckoning, as the sun warmed the impassive cliffs of Oiseval. It must have seemed paradise to the islanders as they farewelled their home, heading out into the great unknown, the mainland of hunger and haste. Ever respectful of tradition, the islanders left an open Bible and a small pile of oats in each house, before locking the doors and boarding the Harebell. Surely there were tears as the island faded into the ocean. The umbilical cord between man and island stretched and finally snapped as the faint outline of St Kilda dissolved into the sunshine.

Sea Stacs

Eighty-five years later, it was soon my turn to depart. As our boat pulled away from St Kilda, I turned and gazed out over the open miles of seawater. In the distance, I could see a number of black masses rising out of the ocean, like giant standing stones. As we sped towards these monstrous towers, David told us that they – Stac an Armin and Stac Lee – were the highest sea stacs in Britain, at 191m and 165m respectively. And there they were; granite Behemoths rising from the grey water, circled by flocks of gannets overhead.

How strange to think that something so seemingly dark and sterile could foster life. Here, on the precipitous, almost sheer cliffs, islanders shinnied, grasping at lazy puffins and gannet eggs, living in caves for weeks on end in order to provide their families with food throughout winter. I craned my head upwards. I couldn’t imagine surviving on such a bleak cliff face, in the middle of the ocean. Yet, in 1727, an outbreak of smallpox on Hirta meant no one could collect three men and eight boys who’d been left on Stac an Armin a few days earlier. These hardly souls survived here for nine months, braving the winter in their godforsaken cave, huddling together for warmth and living solely on gannet flesh and fresh water. The Steward arrived from the mainland the following spring and rescued them; thankfully, all were safe and sound.


There was time for joy, for mischief, besides the hunting and gathering. On the north-west side of Ruival there was a door-shaped opening in the rocks, over-hanging a gully. As we lazily sailed past, David told of a ritual young men of the island undertook to prove themselves worthy of taking a wife. In the old days, every bachelor-wooer honoured his love by standing here on his left foot, with half the sole protruding over the rock face. His right foot was then drawn out to the left and there he crouched, a ridiculous figure, with his fists extending further than his feet. Only then was this young man considered worthy of his mistress.

The Mistress Stone, WIkimedia Commons.

As we circled back to Boreray, the sun broke through the clouds and water shone like a sheet of aluminium foil. Our boat lazily drifted past the cliffs, and guillemots poked their heads out of nooks and crannies, as if to greet us. Here, on a small rock in the vast North Sea, I felt strangely free from noisy chaos of life on the mainland. And yet I was merely a tourist, a day tripper, there to poke and pry and then head home.

I left feeling that my presence on St Kilda had caused the place to lose some of its mystery. Fifty years ago, when it lay virtually forgotten, there were no day trips, or cruise ships – no inquisitive, seasick mainlanders scouring the island for suitable photography sites or a trace of the old islanders. Even as the mainland came into sight, I stayed on the deck, clinging to the rails. A rainbow broke through the mist, and I felt strangely reassured. St Kilda would always remain, a bastion of the old way of living; a safe haven for sheep, gannets and the odd solitary soul.